CANCER WARRIOR

ALMARIE WAS A PRECOCIOUS CHILD. I NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO TEST HER I.Q BUT I KNOW IT WAS HIGH.UP TO NOW, I ASK WHY SHE WAS NOT GIVEN A CHANCE TO LIVE A FULL LIFE IF SHE WAS GIVEN THE GIFT TO LEARN THINGS QUICKLY..MUCH MORE WHY SHE WAS NOT GIVEN A CHANCE TO LIVE LONG WHEN SHE WAS A BABY OF MINE.
SHE WAS STRONG, BRAVE CHILD.SHE WAS AFRAID OF THE DARK AND THE GHOSTS AND MONSTERS OF THE HALLOWEEN, BUT SHE WAS NOT AFRAID OF DEATH AND CANCER.
AT AGE OF 4, SHE ALREADY UNDERSTOOD.SHE SAW DEATH AS SHE OBSERVE THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANIMALS IN OUR NEIGHBORHOOD.I JUST HOPE THAT HER DAD KNEW HOW GIFTED SHE WAS. HE WAS A BUSY MAN LIKE MY DAD .I EVEN DO NO NOT KNOW ALSO IF MY DAD APPRECIATED MY ACADEMIC ACHIEVEMENTS WHEN I WAS A STUDENT.
A MOTHER WISHES ONLY THE BEST FOR HER CHILDREN .SHE FIGHTS FOR THEIR LIVES WHEN THEY ARE ENDANGERED.LOOK AT HOW A TIGER OR A LION PROTECT HER CUBS.BEING FACE TO FACE WITH CANCER IS AKIN TO A FEELING OF BEING THREATENED TO DIE YOUR SELF. THERE ARE FACTORS BEYOND OUR CONTROL AND ONE OF THEM IS THE LACK OF CAPACITY TO FIGHT.ONE ONLY CAN LOSE HOPE AND STOP LOOKING FOR MEANS TO KEEP YOUR CHILD IF YOU KNOW THAT HER LIFE CAN BE UP TO THAT EXTENT.RADIOTHERAPY WAS THEIR OPTION BUT ONLY PALLIATIVE. BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE LIFE AND NOTHING CAN EVER REPLACE THE MEANING OF THAT PERSON EVEN IF YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO GIVE BIRTH TO MANY MORE CHILDREN IN THESE WORLD.ACCEPTANCE IS HARD TO DO.HOPE THEY STOP TO QUESTION IF I WAS A GOOD MOTHER IF I CHOSE TO LEAVE THE CHILD TO FEED HER AND TO LOOK FOR WAYS TO SUSTAIN HER therapy.I SAW MY CHILD IN HER STRUGGLE.IF SHE HER SELF WAS TENACIOUS TO UNDERGO THE WAYS THAT SHE HAS GONE THROUGH, WHY SHOULD I STOP?SHE WAS THE ONLY MEANING OF MY LIFE.I TOLD HER SHE WAS MY ONLY TREASURE. THE PERSON WHO TOLD ME TO STOP FIGHTING FOR MY CHILD WAS THE ONE WHO REALLY DID NOT LOVE HER.GIVING HER UP WAS NOT LOVE.AND MUCH MORE...I WAS VISIBLY THERE FROM THE ONSET UP TO THE END...WHO WAS THERE BUT NOT VISIBLE FOR MY CHILD WAS INCREDULOUSLY NOT THE ONE WHO REALLY CARED FOR HER.NOBODY COULD CLAIM THAT THEY TOOK CARE OF MY BABY EXCLUSIVELY FROM THE TIME SHE WAS BORN.I TRIED MY BEST TO BE W/ MY CHILD IN EVERY WAY I CAN AND HE WHO DENIED THAT KNOW THE TRUTH SO WELL.I EVEN WORKED HARD EVEN FOR MY FIRST CHILD.WHO HELPED ME? WHO SAW US IN THE DARKEST HOURS? THERE IS NO NEED TO MENTION.MY ABSENCE WHEN I WAS NOT W/ HER BLED MY HEART NO END.
NO ONE SHOULD QUESTION IF I WAS A GOOD MOTHER.I WAS IN THE BEST I CAN. I HAVE MY FLAWS BUT HOPE ALMARIE HAS FORGIVEN HER MOTHER'S IMPERFECTIONS. MY TIME W/ HER WAS QUALITY TIME.IT IS DIFFERENT FROM THE QUANTITY.HER DAD AND I TRIED TO GIVE HER A COMFORTABLE LIFE THAT OTHER CHILDREN WHO LIVES IN THIS PLANET NEVER HAD. SHE HAD EVERYTHING SHE ASKED- THE MOST EXPENSIVE TOYS, CLOTHES AND FOOD. SHE HAD EVEN HAD BOOKS OTHERS DIDN'T HAVE.oF COURSE, OTHER CHILDREN WON'T READ WILLIAMS, COMPRE GYNE , AND SABISTON AND WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD TEACH OBSTETRICS TO HER CHILDREN, BUT ME. I was a good tutor.I taught my baby sister Joyce my lessons in invertebrates when she was three and she amazed her teacher when she brought frog skeletons in their class.She taught her classmates the bone parts of the frog.